Maybe I’ll Marry You Because I Want To Keep Talking To You

I’m asking myself why would I marry someday?

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How I Cried

I get a little teary (lie! it’s a river actually) obviously when someone shows their affection. Not only to me, but to see my friend getting worry about her father could trigger my eyes to produce tons of tears.

Anyway, I got pretty sensitive lately. I cried over little things and suddenly I could  burst into tears when I’m alone. But when people ask if I’m okay I will say I’m okay but getting angry when people think that I’m really okay.

Weird, huh?!
And sorry for giving you such a cold words or rude words. Please be patient of me.

How You Supposedly React To a “Drama”?

I joked about suicide as a coping mechanism. It makes it not real and it’s a form of denial for me. Sometimes it was a small cry for help. But when others treat it like it really is just a joke… it hurts. What can i do to restrain myself when others obviously agrees with the voices inside my head?

[7/6, 21:35] me: mending gua lompat dari jembatan juanda
[7/6, 21:35] d: Silahkan
[7/6, 21:35] d: Tp bilang disini dulu
[7/6, 21:35] c: Live ig sekalian
[7/6, 21:35] d: Jd gua bisa saksikan secara live :v
[7/6, 21:36] c: Hapenya pake case anti crack
[7/6, 21:36] ‪b‬: Sip gw rekamin sapa tau laku dijual
[7/6, 21:36] ‪a: lu klo mau bunuh diri live bilang
[7/6, 21:36] ‪a‬: nanti abis mati hpnya gua ambil

that’s legit what they said

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Get Hopes Up

get your hope up:
“to make you think that what you want is going to happen.”
Usage notes: usually said when something is not likely to happen

That’s what the dictionary said. Well, basically it should wake me up from daydreaming.

Sebelum semuanya nampak nyata ya bersabar. Be patient and keep praying.

Now you know the keyword. What’s with the worry?

Be patient,, let’s breathe and smile more often. :))

Don’t be the victim of your own mind, dear!

Love yourself and let the world feel your love so they will love you back.